Deserted Hallways

I feel fresh and lovely.
I feel new. For the first time in months I feel something that I can consider happy.

Today, Allison had an "Off Treatment Party" because her leukemia is in remission. Yeah Allison! Anyway it started off pretty boring. Tallie, Jenny and I took off our shoes and danced around in the moon jump. Then I got out and felt dizzy. Then we got back in and talked and took pictures and felt complete. At least I did. I didn't feel anything separating out friendship. Then Tallie and I went outside. Jenny said that her mom would probably kill her if she went outside, so she stayed in. Tallie and I went on the swings and sang the words to the crappy music pouring out of the gym doors. Then we went and sat in this car thing and made fun of ourselves. After that we sat on this pirate ship type thing and talked. We saw Drew and I screamed and ran to him and jumped into his arms and laughed and smiled and realized how much I love and miss him. The same thing happened when Will (H.) came. Then we all stood over by the pirate ship and took pictures with Will's iPhone. I was lame enough to take the time to upload one for a new Facebook default pic. Then Tallie, Drew, Will and I hung out with Jenny for a bit and then she had to leave. Then Tallie said she had to pee, but she really didn't and we went through the bathroom to the elementary school area. We went up the stairs and discussed how fun this would be to do with a guy. We also held hands because we were scared of how dark it was up there. Then we went back to the gym and decided to go back up to "childhood" with Will (M.) Upstairs, we sat and talked about how dark it was and how the hallway we were in was deserted and might be haunted and then we heard the door open and light from the outside spilled in. "Shitshitshitshit." Our whispers sounded similar. We thought we were going to get caught. Even if we had of been, we probably wouldn't have gotten in trouble. We ducked and ran down the hallway trying to find an open door to a room we could hide in. About 2 minutes later, we were brave enough to see if someone had come inside. We stealthily ran down the stairs and went back through the bathroom to light which blinded me. While we were running back, Will grabbed my hand, and I have to admit, I felt pretty awkward about that. The whole time when we were in the hallway, we were joking about how we were going to rape each other. And I said that I wanted to hold Will's hand but I also mentioned that I didn't feel that way about him. And I thought he understood, but when he took my hand, and I know it's stupid, but I felt like he might have feelings for me.
Anyway, we were back in the moon jump and my heart was still pounding from hearing the door open.

A little while after I had to leave and Tallie's still at the party and Drew and both Wills probably are too. I feel a little lame that I'm not there and I'm typing about it after taking a shower and taking off all my make-up. But I feel so clean and happy. And infinite.

Love, Laura

P.S. Next time you go to a party, take off your shoes. The whole time.