Year of the Ox

Happy Chinese New Year!!! If your an ox, this is your year. My sister is into zodiac so she's been talking about how it's the year of the ox all day. Anyway, it's a good time to come up with last minute resolutions, or reinforce those ones you came up with but haven't exactly been following. Yeah, that's me. I've decided all my ones were pretty stupid though so it doesn't reallly matter that I haven't been doing them. I don't think I ever posted them on here but they were pretty...yeah. So, I'm just going to forget about most of them and try to be more positive plus I've been trying to read a book a week and it's been working immensely so far.

So today I came to terms with a fact: As most high school girls do, I have a crush on a boy. A huge crush. Massive, Mount Everest big (octupus big, Tallie). Um...get the point? Well, he's older and we barely see each other during the day, but even when we do, he never talks to me. So, I get the point, I'm pretty boring and I'll have to agree with you on that, but not boring enough to completly ignore. I have red hair, I have redish brown eyes, not the most usual thing, but whatever, just be like that, right? Well, that's how I've always looked at it, but I've decided that's not okay with me. I can't keep making excuses for him no matter how attracted physically and mentally to him I am. So let's go back a few sentences and turn that right into a wrong. I'm tired of getting to school early and convincing one of my friends to walk upstairs with me around 8:15 so I can possibly see him and possibly say hi and possibly smile. I'm sick of passing him up in the hallway and finding myself looking at him...when guess what?---he's not looking back. I'm done with aimlessly internet surfing waiting for him to possibly IM me. And so here's my realization: yes, I really, really like him, but I don't want to. And I know that makes no since. You don't want to? Then just don't. But I'm not like that, I can't just do that. The wanted results will happen soon enough.


New favorite song: The Captain and the Hourglass by Laura Marling
Movie to watch: The Incredible Hulk (Edward Norton=40 years old, but gorgeous)
Book to read: The Wizard of Oz (because you know it was your favorite movie 10 years ago, but you've never thought to read the book)

Love, Laura