I go through two phases in my head. "I like him. I don't." And in between there, I feel like a complete jerk. I know that if I do like him, I'd never be able to go out with him-that's just the way my life has set it up to be. And I know that if I don't, he waits looking at me with those beautiful eyes.
And then there's that other guy. The one I've only seen 3 times since 7th grade. He's pretty nice and cute and I know I've loved him since said 7th grade. But he's not the one for me, this I know. Still, I think about us working out that way.
Plus that other one that I've looked at with big eyes since 8th grade. I think I've had an actual conversation with him...twice. But he's gorgeous, and I feel like we've had some sort of connection. I'm probably wrong about that though.
And of course, there's him. Just, I don't see him with romance in my eyes anymore. I see him as the guy I've kissed about 38 times. I see him as the guy that now hates me even thought I still want to be his friend. I see him as the guy that I've used, but not really...
And then I see me. And I look and look and look. But all I end up with in the end is a mixed up mind and a semi-broken heart.
Love you, Laura
P.S. I'm posting about my softball adventure soon. Probably later today, homework permitting.
About Me
- laurielou
- Oh deary. About me sections are always my least favorite. My name is Laura, I like typing, singing off key, belittling myself, watching movies, hanging out with friends, and lots of other normal teenager things. I like animals and Italian food and I find Harrison Ford attractive. I love vitiman water, Nutella, pom poms and Converse.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
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